When the Time Comes

when the time comes that you and me
are over..
there is nothing certain.. again..
when the time comes you and i meet eye
to eye..
i wouldn't be saying hi..

certainty is vast..
certainty never tells the truth..
it is all but a lie.. that you believe
and hope for..

certain things in life aren't that
certain..
leaving the past behind, doesn't mean
that it is slow, that it wouldn't catch
up to you..
thinking of the future isn't the way it
has to be..
some make mistakes.. some make twice
as others..

tell you what.. everything isn't all
that matters..
nothing would be permanent..
what matters is how YOU change..

at least i have done my best..
i have heard this line, and yet what
makes me curious is the way it means..
you failed, and yet, you never regret
about it..
there is something never certain in
someone..
failures makes some one stronger..
may be thats the way it is..

in vast events in some ones
experiences, he never realizes he has
change..
change isn't all that matters.. it is
you that matters..
you that make who you are..
the change you've made with your
decisions..
the way you understand yourself..

there is some time i have realize..
why is some one so quiet..
he may be sad.. he may be happy..
you can only see it in his eyes..
but why is some one so quiet..
why not?

i have been quiet for a while..
thinking of these words..
but i have my purpose..
i cant tell cause I'm quiet..
may be I'm quiet.. because of trauma..
may be it is a defence mechanisms..
the "take it all, never show emotion"
may be my thoughts are wrong for you..
and may be that makes me scared of
what i have to say..
what i have to say is a decision..
a decision i don't want to make..
because of uncertainty..

i have been afraid from some time..
afraid of making decisions for
myself.. to make a better me..
toughts come out of my mind.. cause i
know what to make a better me..
and changing from what you have been
used to, is as hard as flying with out
wings..
but wings are just tools.. you can
have other tools..

it is true that somethings are
impossible..
whether you like it or not.. there is..

i have to change to be better..
but some peo-ple doesn't change.. cause
they THINK they are in AUTHORITY..
thinking is a way of humans..
authority is a way of nature..
therefore.. being in authority is a
HUMAN NATURE..

to tell you the truth.. changing is a
very mature step..
whether you are so old.. or you are so
young..

there is no certain way of changing..
if you're too good.. there is a 99%
chance of you going bad..
and if you're too bad.. there is a 99%
chance of you going good..
being bad isn't that bad after all..

chances..
chances..
chances..

what is there in chances that most
people think there is something called
luck..
beginner's luck.. how come some people
have these luck?
whats in luck that people hope for
something better..
thus luck make change..
if so.. luck is proof of uncertainty..

end..

it is not yet the end.. everything
makes a new beginning..
change result to another change..
whether you like it or not..
you have been constantly changing..
even though you don't know how to start
to change..
it starts to make doubts on changing..
cause change isn't like a computer
game..
change isn't just a sudden event..
it is but a process..